Now You Don’t

I’m the one that got away
The one that you wish would’ve stayed
Because trust and believe babe
You had the best on you arm as your lady

but now you don’t
and wishing that you did
will never change the fact that you won’t
find someone who was down like me
as fine as me
willing to put in the time like me
just so that you could be
everything others pulled you from
man, you must be numb
with the feeling of dumb
that has to be embodying you
as you try to
find someone to replace what you had
you said you’d be glad
to be with someone else
that what you needed you felt
wasn’t coming from me
not to the degree that you believed
it should have
but I ain’t even mad
that you went a different way
decided to stray
and choose the other chick
it use to make me sick
throw me into a fit
thinking I wasn’t good enough
that shyt was rough
but I survived
no thanks to you
or the way you do… did me
I’ll never be in that position again
and now you want to make amends
because the grass wasn’t necessarily green
naturally
like you thought it was
now i’m supposed to give a f***
because your vision is clear
and now you fear
a life without me
hindsight is definitely 20-20
but i will not
and cannot support your initiatives
you really just
need to accept that you wasted
perfection
for the injection
of a self-inflicted pain
your ultimatums while I stood in the rain
wanting your umbrella
just to weather
our storms
even if it was the norm
as long as it was the norm with you
but what did you do?
find reason to separate
and deteriorate
what was once our fate
and now it’s too late
because I couldn’t wait for you
to come through
and value the diamond in the rough you had
it’s okay if that makes you sad
but know that I’m not mad
because in the end